Leaving the Adirondack’s

As Thoreau has stated, “At present I am a sojourner in civilized life again.” 

I often struggle with my return from such beauty and solitude. This time was different. I needed to look at this decision and ask myself why. Was I no longer looking toward being in the Adirondack’s  Were there other reasons?  

There were in fact other reasons or at least one other reason. I have continued to grow and develop and no longer find it necessary to remain attached to the Adirondacks or to the thought, the fear of having to return to what can be the insanity of civilization. 

I found this lack of fear frightening in and of itself. Much of the drive home caught me in deep, silent thought. I needed to find answers. When they came together I began to feel increasingly relaxed, more comfortable.

In the past I found myself feeling sad, lonely and full of fear. Today, much as Thoreau did those many years ago, I go confidently into this world.